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11.25.2008

19 Years...Part I

November 26, 1989. This was the day when I left my old country to start a new life here in the United States. It was surreal and heart-breaking. I had a boyfriend of 5 years and to think that it could be a long time before we see each other was sad. I know that there was a big possibility that I wouldn't see him again but I never let my heart rule over my head.

Was I cold or smart? Anyway, I've always wanted to live here in the U.S. When I first came here for a visit, I was only 15. I went to Los Angeles, San Diego and San Francisco. I fell in love with San Francisco, who wouldn't? My aunt asked if I want to stay in California and continue my studies but I declined. I was young and I'm scared to live away from my parents. I vowed that I will return someday and live in SF.

After college, I was given that chance and I took it. Leaving the life that I've known for something that was unknown was both scary and exciting. Leaving my boyfriend was hard but I was not willing to give up my dream. He was not my first boyfriend but he was my first 'real love', my first kiss. Our relationship was not perfect, we broke up a couple of times but somehow end up together again. I also thought he was the man I was going to marry. But all these took a back seat when I realized that I am not ready to settle down. I still need to fulfill my 'dream'. Yes, I sacrificed love over ambition. We kept in touch for the first two years but just like any other long distance relationship, it was hard to keep it going. I decided that I need to move on. It was the hardest thing I've ever done...

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21 comments:

  1. Well, I guess sometimes we just need to follow our dreams. And in fulfilling our dreams, some sacrifices have to be made. That's life.

    Wow, this reads like a novel. Is it going to be like a serialised novel with many parts to it? : )
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  2. It must be really hard leaving the life you left and you were used to. Especially the part of being far from the one you love.
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  3. this post is kind of heart breaking. Please let me know once you're writing the second part. Have a good day!
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  4. Oh! how sad! I'm dying to hear the next part :)
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  5. @Foong
    You're right about that. You lose some and you gain some. :o) This is kind of a novel, isn't it? LOL It's serialized. How many parts? Hmm, I guess it depends on how much I'm willing to share and how people are going to react to it. If people are bored, then I'll make it short. LOL
    @Bluetooth
    Yes, that is the hard part. Come to think of it, I don't remember crying. :o(
    @Babycobalt
    I will, thanks. :o)
    @Online
    Thank you. :o)
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  6. biting naman ako dito! heheheh when will be the part2? i can't wait to read..:)
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  7. biting naman! i can't wait the part 2..make it sooner or later please...hehehe
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  8. Sis,

    I can't wait for the Part 2. It's sad you weren't able to keep the relationship going but as you've said, you have to sacrifice something to gain that one thing you are longing to have. Di ba puedeng sabay na lang? Hehe!
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  9. @Glorie
    Abangan ang susunod na kabanata! LOL If I didn't expect it to be long, only when I was writing it that I realized I cannot put everything in one post. :o)
    @Lainy
    It's not meant to be sis. Kakalungkot nga, he didn't take it real well. Wait for the second part.
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  11. Hi Babette, lungkot naman perong siguradong overjoyed DH mo sa decision na yan. part 2 pls.
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  12. mareng barb, abangan namin ang susunod.. wink*
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  13. Mareng barb, di kayo para sa isa't isa dahil kahit saan at gaano kayo ka at kahit lang years pa dahil may communication pa naman kayo. Di talaga siya para saiyo dahil I have a relative the haven dating since first year college until now still on going long distance relationship hinintay lang makatapos ng medicine and bf. I think it's 9 years of date sila.
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  14. sorry for the first comment nanonood kasi ako ng filipino movie correction please on the words KA-kalayo, HAVEN- have been.
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  15. You're keep us waiting for the second part which is exciting.
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  16. I have so many questions but I want to wait until I've read the whole story just in case you answer it before I need to ask. It is a sad thing when you do have to choose between things you love.
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  17. Hi Mama,

    I hope this one get's in. I believe in destiny... If it's not meant for us then it will never happen at all. Did you also imagine your life? if ever that you'll end up together. I believe that God has great plans for all of us. That sometimes we don't understand in the current situation but the moment you surpass it. That's the time you say "aahhh" now I get it. Hehehe i'm getting serious smile nman dyan *wink
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  18. Happy Thanksgiving, Babette :o)
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  19. I think I know how the story ended, LOL. I believe that we're the one making our destiny to happen. If it was not for your decision to leave then there would have not been a happy twist to the sad story *wink*. I also believe that you have to forgo one to realize another. Anyway I still want to see the ending, LOL.
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  20. Yay, finally pumasok din ang comment ko, ano ba yan? LOL
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  21. your life and love story is quite interesting. ill have to read the part II, hehe.
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